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The New Normal
03:35
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And everything was different then / After the hospital I told myself I had the chance to live again/ I'm gonna change this shit/I'm gonna kill the part of my brain where the pain exists/You know that part of me that had me left for dead/On a hospital bed knowing the infection spread/Because of self-medication/It couldn't help me then/But the beginning of my story helps to tell its end/I couldn't figure how to start this/I hate that typical introductory rap song/Factory wrapped in its over-produced cartilage/I want that bone marrow, there's no buffer between us now/I've been heartsick/So consider this catharsis/I moved out of that apartment/But took its baggage with me, now something's damaged in me/And it's been digging deeper, a sickness/Give the reaper a kiss and lick the litmus/The gatekeeper went missing, MIA on a Sunday/My demeanor is death/It's either that or forgiveness, don't forget this/The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless/I've been swimming in it but no one noticed/So I don't need your prognosis CHORUS The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless/I've been swimming in it, but no one noticed/So stop looking for signs and stop looking for motives/You stare at the stars, you're losing focus/The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless/I've been swimming in it, but no one noticed/The new normal is hopeless/The new normal is hopeless VERSE And everything was different then/The possibility of my life being taken but it didn't end/Seeing life through a different lens/I told myself that I would never lose my grip but then I slipped again/Looking at the stars from under the surface/Drowning out the noise of the world's circus/The paranoia's getting real/So don't you tell me how to fucking feel/People think I'm such a popular dude/Like, you toured the world making positive moves/You should be happy, have some confidence too/Keep trying to make a point that they're not gonna prove/And I feel overwhelming guilt from it/I know I should be happy and I know I should be proud/And I hate the fact that I feel nothing/And even if it's wrong, I'd do anything to feel something/So I don't know if I'll make it the next forty odd minutes/But if I don't, fucking forget it/I'm feeling heavy as lead/There's poison in the water and a bullet in my head CHORUS The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless/I've been swimming in it, but no one noticed/So stop looking for signs and stop looking for motives/You stare at the stars, you're losing focus/The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless/I've been swimming in it, but no one noticed/The new normal is hopeless
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Four Part Cure
03:57
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VERSE Be careful of the gods you worship/They portray the world as perfect, but that's not how Earth is/And science says there's many universes/And religious verses tell us God controls this version/So if there's other universes and we're not alone/Maybe there's other gods and they got their own/Maybe they go to bars together hanging out/And find things about their universe to brag about/Like, my universe is fourteen billion years old/It's got a planet in it full of superheroes/And I designed it all myself and they enjoy it/It's amazing that these motherfuckers still haven't destroyed it/And then the gods get on their Facebook/And they neglect to show the negative and only celebrate the good/They pick and choose the better parts of their creation/And only post about us when their ego needs inflation Do Not Fear Death VERSE And I don't have a killer instinct/Only killing I'm doing is when I'm filling this drink/Only feeling I'm feeling is sipping Victory Gin/So I give up and let familial history win/Rather my body's destruction than letting misery in/If it means feeling numb, then God deliver me sin/I don't wanna die young, but I don't know to quit/Some people turn to the Son to know to live/Some people turn to a gun and know when to quit/Some people vanish and run where no one exists/I know some overcome, take control of their shit/But the older I get, the more I succumb /I start to wonder why we're all so obsessed /With a life we're not positive even happens at death/The more I grow it's easier to accept/ That we have no control over what happens next What is Painful is Easy to Endure VERSE The irony of my life will be how long it lasts/And fame can make a signature an autograph/Power turns a peasant to an autograph/A check beside your name determines follow backs/It's the little things in life that drive you up a wall and back/While you ignore the bigger problems and it all goes bad/Cuz pain is either chronic or its brief, mild or intense/And rarely ever in between/The subtle differences amount to context/Cuz people talk about their pain like it's a contest/Never let them shame the way you feel/Only you can tell you if the pain you feel is real/Now let me break character for a second/Go to Camera 2 and stare directly into you/The problems in your mind can be a strength/And I've never solved a single one of mine because I drank What is Good is Easy to Get VERSE Growing up there wasn't money in the house/And Mom had thirty liquor bottles underneath the couch/Sometimes I had to shower heating water on the stove/And went to school with dirty fucking clothes/And Mom was never ever happy/She went to rehab and we went to latchkey /I know I use my music to complain/As a straight white male with straight white male pain/A decent life is easy to attain/When the color of my skin can win in a rigged game/So if you grew up poor and white/Recognizing privilege doesn't take away your plight/But, imagine walking in a club/And your skin color had people calling you thug/For the music that you like or the liquor that you sip/For me, the good life is easier to get
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Club Privilege
03:38
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VERSE Walk in the club like I own it/That looks pretty cool, don't it?/I did not get the pat down/Pants sagging, hats to the back now/They say pimping ain't easy/But I'm fly like G-Eazy/Bitch got me all fucked up/Fuck a bar line, I take cuts/Tell the bartender my turn/Looking like Audrey Hepburn /I'm feeling like Frank Sinatra/Two shots of your best vodka/One for me and one for you/They complaining the waits long/I look back like "oh poor you"/'m the shit, is that so wrong? CHORUS I wear the clothes that I want/ drink the booze that I want/In this club/I play the songs that I want/I get whatever I want VERSE Don't you ask for my ID/I don't need no fucking ID/Matter of fact I'm VIP/You can't fuck with the white tee/And you can't fuck with my Nikes /I give a fuck if you like me/I talk shit and I like fights/Freedom of speech, bitch, it's my right/Push my way up to the front/Don't you tell me I'm too drunk/Go on and pour me up two more/Fuck are they waiting on you for?/I deserve the good service/And that service better perfect/They treat me better than you 'cuz.../Well I'm better than you, bruh CHORUS I wear the clothes /That I want/I drink the booze that I want/In this club/I play the songs that I want/I get whatever I want BRIDGE (Marsha Mann:) Why don't I pour you a drink?/You look tired/And life is so unfair/ (Red Pill:) I don't need no fucking ID/I don't need no fucking ID/Matter of fact I'm VIP/Matter of fact I'm VIP/I don't need no fucking ID/I don't need no fucking ID/Matter of fact I'm VIP/My skin tone match my white tee CHORUS I wear the clothes /That I want/I drink the booze that I want/In this club/I play the songs that I want/I get whatever I want BRIDGE I get whatever I want/I dress however I want/I go wherever I want/I live whenever I want BRIDGE (Marsha Mann:) Why don't I pour you a drink?/You look tired/And life is so unfair.
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VERSE
So what's a Capricorn to do about this world that he was born into?/Still feel like I got more to prove/Should I have a couple kids/go to work all day/then pour a double gin/be only worth my pay?/'Cuz I'm broke and barely famous/partying with people that don't know what my name is/but they wanna buy my shots/and I'm like why not?/Cuz I can't afford them anyways/Now I'm traveling the world/with some people I looked up to when I really was a no one/And I just wanna see my girl/but she's alone at home and I could really use a cold one/I still don't feel in place/I'm the weird guy at the party sitting awkward in the corner/and they can see it on my face/so let me slide up outta here and hit the bar to place my order
CHORUS
I find myself in situations/that make me feel I'm almost famous/They want my smile but I can't fake it/like here we are now entertain us/I played shows on sixty stages/then I came home and can't make payments/They want my smile but I can't fake it/like here we are now entertain us/And all I see is stars, in everybody else/And all I see is stars, in everybody but myself
VERSE
Cuz look, this little Capricorn has always been inadequate/you can go ahead and laugh at it/I was the new kid at my middle school/awkward and afraid of all the roles I'm trying to fit into/And nothing's really changed/In fact it's getting worse I feel it digging even deeper/I always felt strange/Missing school because I'm anxious lying to my teachers/Depression is a bitch/Hated everyone around me cuz they always seemed perfect/And I was just a little kid/Now I'm on my way to thirty and I still feel worthless
CHORUS
I find myself in situations/that make me feel I'm almost famous/They want my smile but I can't fake it/like here we are now entertain us/I played shows on sixty stages/then I came home and can't make payments/They want my smile but I can't fake it/like here we are now entertain us/And all I see is stars, in everybody else/And all I see is stars, in everybody but myself
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INTRO The way they measure winners makes me wanna be a loser/so I hang with all the sinners love the beggar not the chooser VERSE So the cancer comes back/can't stop the bloodbath with thumbtacks/can't overcome that/And they work so hard so they go so far/but so far who's really done that?/I think about ambition/Does the horse draw the carriage/or the hanging of the carrot?/Cuz this world is something else/They expect me to love their wealth/But I still can't love myself/So find another lie to tell/These fairytales about millionaires/came from nothing/wing and a prayer/make us love it/but we're okay/Still we gotta hear them say BRIDGE Everything that I got/Yeah I got that on my own/See that money, see that car/See that castle I call home/See that yacht/See that job/Yeah I did that on my own/Everything that I got/B--- I got that on my own PRECHORUS The way they measure winners makes me wanna be a loser/so I hang with all the sinners/love the beggar not the chooser/Addicted to computers/Generation Consumer/You'll see it later than sooner/Treat symptoms instead of tumors CHORUS So --- Your Ambition/We don't love your ambition/I'm in love with my failures/I'm in love with my misses/Cuz everything you are is everything that makes you weak/I'm not reaching for the stars/I got my hands up in defeat/---- Your Ambition x4 P.O.S VERSE yeah! dead in the doorway/home from the grind/heavy heart and a headache/shoes off flick on someone else's/life like it's yours/wanting more feeling selfish/--- yeah, the clock ticks ridic/that uphill pitch is about as real as it gets/so go, come on, skedaddle/navigating a lake of fire with papier-mâché paddles/and weak hands, scared hearts make ---- scared plans/there's no chance and no comparison/just cherishing the little bit of air I get/get it in/fill lungs, move, own footprints/yeah trying to fill my own damn shoes/I don't see 'em if they purchase their personality, worthless/judging by the gift that they cursed with PRECHORUS The way they measure winners makes me wanna be a loser/so I hang with all the sinners/love the beggar not the chooser/Addicted to computers/Generation Consumer/You'll see it later than sooner/Treat symptoms instead of tumors BRIDGE Everything that I got/Yeah I got that on my own/See that money, see that car/See that castle I call home/See that yacht/See that job/Yeah I did that on my own/Everything that I got/---- I got that on my own CHORUS So ---- Your Ambition/We don't love your ambition/I'm in love with my failures/I'm in love with my misses/Cuz everything you are is everything that makes you weak/I'm not reaching for the stars/I got my hands up in defeat/---- Your Ambition
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INTRO And she said would it be alright/if I got a Rum & Coke/I said baby for tonight let's pretend that we're not broke/sick of living in tomorrow/should be living in the here/she whispered something in my ear and said VERSE I don't see what the big deal is/rum & cokes aren't that expensive/plus I'm paying for the drinks/and we've been living codependent/we haven't left that couch in seven months/made a date with divinity but she wouldn't make me lunch/I was in Boise on a Tuesday when I really saw the future/and I realized at that moment I had always been a loser/Look what the world did?/Fuck it, look what I've done to me/All I do is drink and eat/Lay around and fucking sleep/But hey, that's okay/not sure I'll see another day/It's like, that's alright/there's probably not another life/So I use that immaturity to cloud my insecurities/And walk around pretending I' m not afraid of uncertainty/My actions tell me I don't wanna be alive/But really I'm a little kid who's still afraid to die CHORUS All I want is to be happy in this life I got/And Lord I try but I don't truly know if I can stop/If I would die for them/then I should live for them/If I would die for them/Then I should live VERSE I used to stay up late at night/thinking about my songs/Now I fall asleep early from drinking all day long/I used to hate the feeling of a Friday night alone/Now I'm too embarrassed of the person I have grown/This song's the only person that I'll tell/Cuz there ain't no going back once you tell them you need some help/I spent every dollar that could be spent/Now I just wonder where the good me went/So be good to one another/Tell my girl I love her/Find a little peace in knowing that I didn't suffer/This world is full of beauty/This world is for the lovers/Remind of the feeling of a childhood summer/Remind me of the time before when all I did was wonder/The world was still a mystery to me to be discovered/Because I don't wanna die, Lord I wanna die/No I don't wanna die CHORUS All I want is to be happy in this life I got/And Lord I try but I don't truly know if I can stop/If I would die for them/then I should live for them/If I would die for them/Then I should live BRIDGE It goes one shot of Seagram's Gin/Two parts of Diet Tonic/Three's not a lucky charm/Four times I've tried to stop it/Fifth's step's the hardest/Cuz six is a lie/When seven days a week you're feeling like you wanna die/There's eight people that I love/Nine times I've made amends/Ten years ago I never thought this'd be the way it ends/Eleven times for rest/And twelve for the month that I climbed into this mess CHORUS All I want is to be happy in this life I got/And Lord I try but I don't truly know if I can stop/If I would die for them/then I should live for them/If I would die for them/Then I should live OUTRO I just want Kath to be happy. I just want Dad to be happy. I want my brothers to be happy. I want my friends to be happy. My generation to be happy. For Mello to be happy. Ill Poetic and Charlie to be happy.
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CHORUS You are what you know know/the problems sink deep to the bottom of your soul/And the world doesn't know/you're lost in the undertow/And those waves come strong/swallowing the water/you can't say what's wrong/The surface looks calm/So the rest of them carry on x2 VERSE I remember when the ambulance came/she was unresponsive/Dad was screaming her name/He tried to give her mouth to mouth/Nothing but green fluid she was coughing out/And fucked up thing is we had been there before/I was scared the paramedics had her laid on the floor/They cut her shirt off/And had her chest bare/With his hand over her left breast/and then compressed there/Nothing/They put her in the ambulance and took off/none of us could talk/I think we felt it/we had known for years that she was helpless/But you can't ever prepare for it/even with the shit she had been through/this was rare for her/they airlifted her to the hospital/she had pulled through before so it was possible/the doctor told us that her brain was dead/seven minutes without oxygen the way it ends/call the priest and have him pray again/maybe God will save her then/almost thirty years of alcohol abuse/she died on April 16th/nobody put her in the news/Her name was Jody Ann/I felt the coldness of her body at the funeral the last time I would hold her hand CHORUS You are what you know know/the problems sink deep to the bottom of your soul/And the world doesn't know/you're lost in the undertow/And those waves come strong/swallowing the water/you can't say what's wrong/The surface looks calm/So the rest of them carry on x2 VERSE You think that I don't see the warning signs/death by the bottle/I'm immortalized/On every corner there's a trigger for me/A big neon sign saying there's liquor pouring/A big neon sign just to remind me of it/A big neon sign saying my time is coming/Just shy of the age of when her liver failed/most of my money been spent on liquor sales/and you can talk about the reasons/you can chalk it up to talking to my demons/maybe it's something gone undiagnosed/ maybe I'm scared of suicide so I'm dying slow/Yeah - Mr. Slow Suicide/with his big fucking heart and regret is in his eyes/It's only medicine/It's only something to feel better when my head is in/a fucking tailspin and I hate myself/When I'm overwhelmed with life/and I can't save myself/Went from a little to a fifth a day/I just wanna go back/How did it get this way?/I just wanna go back how did it get this way?/And what would Kath do without me?/ What would Dad do without me?/look what I would leave behind/But I feel like I'm losing my mind/I'm a loser/I sing the blues/I'm not doing too fine/The other night I had a dream/I'm in a car without a driver, in the passenger seat/and right behind me was my mother and a child/and I smiled/She hadn't come to see me in awhile/The thing about dreams is nothing is odd/We were flying down the Lodge/I was thinking about God/The mood started to change/Looked back and my mother slowly turned to remains/The baby was gone and I looked to my right/Out the window and they had taken the good in my life/And like a movie/A car had pulled up next to me/Couldn't tell who it was driving the hooptie/He pulled up ahead and pulled out a gun/I tried yelling/but my words wouldn't come/He points it at me then I hear from the sky/I'm gonna make you famous/I'm gonna make you famous/I'm gonna make you famous/I'm gonna make you famous/I'm gonna make you famous/I'm gonna make you famous/And then came the.
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When The Devil Knocks
04:50
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VERSE There ain't no Lord here, Dear Lord/Nobody watching or protecting/what you fear for/There's nothing moral about humans/disillusioned, living in ruins/most unsacred of unions/the Devil speaks fluent in influence/God's students lost/busy disproving Newton/Must be thinking is he this fucking stupid?/I'm a shoe-in for Heaven's Gates/My dues been accruing/You sitting in that waiting room stewing/Sweat dripping, anxious/Tie getting loosened/Knowing that you judgment is pursuant/to the life that you lived/dirty shit that you been doing/You tried to make your soul translucent/ excuses taking the place of improvements/Your prayers been muted/You soul been wounded/That high horse you rode in on/Is fucking useless/ CHORUS When the devil comes knocking/you don't got a lot of options/body and soul rotten/God's forgotten, misbegotten/downtrodden/but he ain't watching x2 BRIDGE Do not fear God/Do not fear death/What is painful is easy to endure/What is good is easy to get/So when God invites me up to have my interview/and tells me that my résumé reminds him of the sin in you/I'll remind her that you tried your best to do what's best/without a second thought or consideration of what's next/and that you never told her children you were better for it/and that you asked if I could pass along a message for him/that if the God above is real and I was left below/That's not the kind of God I want and you should let me go/ VERSE So Hello Mr. Self Righteous/Bury your pride beneath the shadow of the Cyprus/I can see it in your iris/you're lifeless/You might just/pick and leave to fight ISIS/The Middle East, there isn't peace for those sightless/Those people need your beliefs/spiritual crisis/You can enlighten them from underneath the Ficus /but really if they'd just remain tight-lipped/you might give/Some rationality/Some democracy/Western Culture the foundation of your Whiteness/But it's not a matter of wrong or right it's/a matter of these divine rights bitch/But man, fuck it/Go on your crusade/Put your woman in place, make fun of somebody who's gay/nobodies racist on Kill-A-Black-Tuesday/and it's cool to say the n-word when you rap along with 2 Chainz/But before you go all Liu Kang on Hussein's/You gotta tell 'em you're a Christian, and you pray/But goddamnit, today is a new day/and freedom tastes like gunpowder/pass the Crest toothpaste CHORUS When the devil comes knocking/you don't got a lot of options/body and soul rotten/God's forgotten, misbegotten/downtrodden/but he ain't watching BRIDGE Do not fear God/Do not fear death/What is painful is easy to endure/What is good is easy to get/So when God invites me up to have my interview/and tells me that my résumé reminds him of the sin in you/I'll remind her that you tried your best to do what's best/without a second thought or consideration of what's next/and that you never told her children you were better for it/and that you asked if I could pass along a message for him/that if the God above is real and I was left below/That's not the kind of God I want.
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All Along The Shore
04:49
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VERSE I vaguely remember when the winter broke/Like waking up from a coma to shades of indigo/the ultraviolet in the light became unbearable/the ultraviolence of my life became my parable/the self-destruction burned a fire through my flesh/the craving like an infantile desire for the breast/elixir set upon the wires in my head/that told me only those that get admired are the dead/and my obsession was fanatical/I couldn't entertain suggestions of sabbatical/to play the part I had to make the measures radical/no virtuosity to calm the inner animal/and social scientists will say that I'm irrational/self-preservation is to be a bit theatrical/because everyone is terminal/and the universe will never take you personal CHORUS And at the very least he found some peace/while the world was busy counting sheep/The night became dawn/And he never awoke but his demons were gone VERSE I vaguely remember when the summer came/Like waking up from a coma to have another name/To feel reborn and find your happiness restored/And realizing now that you will never find reward/The only proof of your existence in this life/Is to pass along a star and view the absence of its light/You're nothing more than a shadow to be observed/an astronomer who witnesses the dip upon the Earth/I'm a measurement on instruments/An insignificant coincidence/But somehow that is magnificent/And darling that's the core of our predicament/You find yourself an unwilling participant/I see no reason we should rectify our differences/existing wasn't meant as false imprisonment/enjoy the cognitive dissonance CHORUS And at the very least he found some peace/while the world was busy counting sheep/The night became dawn/And he never awoke but his demons were gone OUTRO Gone till November/Gone till November/The devil tried to kill me now I'm gone for forever/All along the shore they screamed out no surrender/If we're gonna die then we all die together x2/ I saw you standing there/Saltwater in your hair/Sunglasses hide your eyes/We all know what's inside/You don't know my name/But I know your blood/All Along the Shore/They Watched It.
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Jeffrey Star
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CHORUS Let's go drive to the park/Let's sneak in after dark/Let's get drunk in my car/Then let's stare at the stars VERSE There really isn't much left to do/except to stay inside and make a mess with you/I wasn't gonna drink tonight/But we can start a fire and watch the heavens move/Till I start a fight that's best to lose/I probably won't change so let's assume/I took two shots when you left the room/Now both you and me got exit wounds/Cuz I can't go anywhere/Without you, that's not fair/I don't know why you love me/I'm broke drunk and ugly/It's probably best not to question it/And neither of us know where heaven is/And this world wasn't meant for me or you/I know you wanna leave it too CHORUS Let's go drive to the park/Let's sneak in after dark/Let's get drunk in my car/Then let's stare at the stars x2 VERSE You got a smile I can't leave behind/So let's a make a world that we design/It's 10PM on a Tuesday night/When we pick songs drunk we usually fight/So we can order second dinner/Or we can do to the park and watch the heavens glimmer/Send the world our best regards/And take a little trip to the Jeffrey Star/It's only us, that might sound/lonely but, look around/It's the fucking best/Leave this world it's a fucking mess/So let's get a pint of rum/Sip that quick, find another one/Look around for another Sun/While I figure out what the fuck I've done. CHORUS Let's go drive to the park/Let's sneak in after dark/Let's get drunk in my car/Then let's stare at the stars
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Chris Orrick Detroit, Michigan
Chris Orrick is the patron saint of a poisoned world. The blue-collar MC writes spiteful chants for the permanently scarred, death letters for the forgotten, surly hymns for charcoal lungs. Think Bukowski on an eloquent bender, swapping wine for whiskey, a notepad for a glowing LED screen, the race track for the recording booth. These are anthems for the irate, over-educated and under-valued. ... more
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